Worth it or not?

So as you know last week I decided to try out slimming worlds SP week. And it was hard! Cutting out things like pasta and potatoes for a week was a major change, and yes it did get my trying new recipes and things I will admit and my fruit consumption went up a lot BUT I personally just found it stupidly hard and by the end of the week i was slipping up on chips down town and the odd cake. Although these were well within my syn allowance I feel like the deprivation just spun me out of control and I ended up bingeing a bit on the bad stuff once the week was over. It didn't help either that I only lost 2lb for all that hard effort. As i can loose that much on the normal plan in all honesty for myself, i just don't think its worth it at all.

So after a few days of being terrible I am trying to get myself back into the swing of eating nice nutritious on plan foods and hopefully I can get back to loosing a bit more but without all the extra hard effort.

Start of a Speedy Week

This last month I haven't done so well with the slimming world journey, I am still 15lbs off since I have started but bad habits have been abound and I have remained too stagnent for my liking.
Which brings us to this week!
In order to give myself a much needed kick up the bum I have decided to try a SP week. SP is basically a slightly stricter form of slimming world, where you focus on the speed foods (more greens less potatoes) and protein etc
I decided to do a week and quite strictly (no FREE but not speed foods etc) in order to (hopefully) loose a fair bit and give myself a boost to keep going.

Day 1 was yesterday and although I didnt do amazingly well with my syns, overall it was actually quite good. Lovely filling salads with eggs and pickled onions to boot, lean meats and lots of lovely fruit. Nom.

Lunch - chicken and turkey salad sooooooo filling!

Dinner - Burger in a Bowl with its delicious sauce nomnomnom!

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Review of The Spice Tailor

From time to time I recieve some products for review, which is a really cool way of trying products out that I would never usually try or buy. I don't get paid for the reviews but I do get the stuff free or with a discount for the purpose of reviewing.
One of my latest ones is a curry kit by The Spice Tailor, from Bzzagent and here is my review!

I have to admit when it comes to curry I'm a bit of a play it safe girl. I like my Korma and stick to it. So when I took on The Spice Tailor curry sauce it was a bit of a step out of my comfort zone to try something new and different.
And actually, I'm really glad I did!
From the outset the spice tailor aims to impress, with its fun swively packaging (and who doesnt like some fun packaging!) and beautiful design work, you feel like you are getting a high end quality product (so a bit better than the meal deal value range im used to!).
The packets were robust but easy to get into, which for me is really important as not only do I not need to be faffing around whilst cooking (I have 2 young children waiting after all) but I'm also a bit clumsy (ok ok more than just a bit). Easy to follow instructions then have you preparing a meal which makes you feel like a top chef!
Gently heating pretty spices before adding each ingredient fills the room with gorgeous smelling scent. It was truly an experience in cooking I would very much like to repeat! And the end result was a gorgeous Tikka Masala that was gobbled up by all! And when you consider that includes a curry loving husband, right down to a 4 and 1 year old, I'm always very impressed by something that satisfies all ;)
The Naans were easy to cook and lovely but no different to many other precooked naans I have tried in the past which is what it is in my opinion (although admittedly once again the packaging is beautiful). It would very much depend on their price whether I would buy them over any other naans, but when it comes to the curry itself, nothing I have tried in the past can touch it. In both flavours and the sheer enjoyment in the cooking process.

Horrid Weekend

When something happens to your child, an inbuilt survival mode is activated. It doesn't matter how tired you are, or how much pain there is. You become ambivalent to it, because no matter what, taking care of them trumps all. Last weekend my daughter had a seizure, something called a febrile convulsion, in reaction to a high temperature. It's a horrific thing to witness for the first time, scary and helpless. They are pretty common amongst young children, although unfortunately hers was a complicated one which is not as common. Things like meningitis were batted around but luckily in the end, after many tests and medicines and IV's she was cleared of anything nasty and after 3 days in hospital we came home.
Bar my going crazy over no sleep for a couple of days (and constantly stopping said child from pulling her lines) the fatigue and pain I would usually suffer was put aside, for the care of my child came first. Unfortunately for me, it decided to come back with a vengence once we returned home, and my recovery from her recovery took place!

But motherhood amazes me. That we can pull something from within to break through our own pain when it comes to the needs of our young. I face it on a daily basis in milder form, that I take care of them making sure they are fed and warm and loved, no matter how I am feeling. But to experience it in such an extreme, it's just a biological marvel.

Feeling Low

Today is not a good day.

I have pain in so many places, energy levels are low and most of all I am in a huge slump.

I hate the lows. I feel like doing nothing but hate that I'm doing nothing. I feel like eating cake and crap, but hate that I eat the cake and crap. I feel so low and the things I do when I feel low make me feel lower.
An endless spiral.

I just try to do what I have to do, to get through to bedtime, to the time when it doesnt matter that I am doing nothing, that I have eaten all I am going to eat that day. When I can sleep and dream of impossible things.

I hate today. Today is not a good day.

Away with the fairys

So this week we have been away with the family in Bristol for easter etc and amongst other activities we have had some photos done.
Myself I had a mini makeover and shoot which I was hoping would make me feel better about myself but it really did not. I felt so huge looking at all the photos :( I did come away with one image in the end but ho hum.
Anyway with the girls we had them in for a fairy photoshoot which was meant to be a magical experiance and end up with some stunning photos with magical effects and such like.
It was an ok day not helped by a poorly baby and a tog that clearly lacks the child friendly touch but we tried to make the most of it. We came back to see the photos a few days later and they weren't the awesomeness I was expecting but there were a couple of good ones and we decided to spend out in the end to get them all digitally and I would work on them myself later.

To be honest I really wouldn't recommend clifton to anyone and they certainly sting you with their prices that funnily they don't give out beforehand!