Feeling Low

Today is not a good day.

I have pain in so many places, energy levels are low and most of all I am in a huge slump.

I hate the lows. I feel like doing nothing but hate that I'm doing nothing. I feel like eating cake and crap, but hate that I eat the cake and crap. I feel so low and the things I do when I feel low make me feel lower.
An endless spiral.

I just try to do what I have to do, to get through to bedtime, to the time when it doesnt matter that I am doing nothing, that I have eaten all I am going to eat that day. When I can sleep and dream of impossible things.

I hate today. Today is not a good day.